The Good, the Bad, and the Okay

The Good, the Bad, and the Okay

My new trainer told me when we first got started to realize that some weeks would be great and I would see several pounds gone, some weeks would be bad and actually see the numbers go back in the wrong direction and some weeks would just be okay with no change.  Logically I understand this piece of advice, however I was expecting those bad and okay weeks to be further down the road.  Well not my luck.  This past week was a rough week in my opinion.  Now I will step on the scale tomorrow to find out whether it was truly good, bad, or okay.  But if felt like a bad week.

On Monday, of this past week I almost quit.  I ate a salad and busted all of my Weight Watchers points.  Now not only did the salad, my favorite salad by the way, take all of my daily points I had remaining on Monday, but it took all my extra weekly points.  I was so upset I think I cried even.  I could understand if I busted the week by being weak and buying those donuts, or cinnamon rolls, or junk food, but no a SALAD. I couldn't believe how a salad could ruin a whole week.

Who knew salads were EVIL!

Now I have only been doing Weight Watchers for about three weeks now.  But I have realized real quick that if I eat right during the week and save my weekly points then I can be a little indulgent over the weekend.  So I have been saving that extra Dr. Pepper, candy, ice cream, or donuts for the weekend.  I was so devastated this week to realize that I would have no points for the weekend.

My trainer really opened my eyes after telling her about the whole salad deal that my own attitude would be what would defeat me.  That really kind of scared me.  Wanting to give up completely after one slip up is my own worst enemy.  Probably has something to do with my OCD and perfectionist-attitude.  I realized this week, that three years is a long time and there are going to really bad weeks and good time.  I am going to have to learn to take those bad weeks in stride.

Of course after spending all weeks agonizing over the whole salad debacle I was able to put many things in perspective.

1.  The "I quit" because things go wrong one day has got to go.
2.  Understanding nutrition better.  A salad is not going to put on ten more pounds
3.  Weight Watchers is not exact, just because I go over in points doesn't mean weight will not be lost that week or weight will be gained.
4.  Three years is a long time.

As a side note: I have discovered something about me and blogging today.  If I am writing based on feelings then I need to do the writing when the feelings are present.  This blog would have been so much better last week while I was experiencing and working through these feelings.  Today is Monday, a whole new week and last week is done and gone.  My mindset and emotions are different today so I would write a total different blog based on my current emotions.  It seems like each Monday is becoming sort of a reset.

If only life really came with a reset button!